Grief

In the past week, 3 different alternative practitioners/healers/intuitives - without consulting with the others - have told me that after 7+ years that my next step in healing is to deal with grief in connection with my 9/11 experience. I watched the World Trade Center burn that day from my office 4 miles north in Manhattan. Then I got a closer view, from 2 miles away, while waiting for a ferry to take me to NJ. I arrived in Hoboken, which is across the river from the World Trade Center, and watched some of the survivors of 9/11 being tended to by medics . . . the looks on their faces and how they walked around like zombies, the smell of the burning, the entire experience, has stayed with me. Changed me. A friend from our church lost his son that day. Our spiritual community was never the same. I've never been the same. Did you know it burned for weeks? Smoldered, really. It was a constant smoke miles in the distance; a constant smell of smoke and burning. My lung damage is a constant reminder. Working through this will be hard. I've done the psychotherapy work years ago, but now I need to do the psychic, energetic work. I think that will be harder, in some ways. I'm still trying to figure out what shape that needs to take. I wonder who I will be on the other side of it. I look forward to meeting her.