That Which Sustains You

While I was online posting that last post, I glanced at Today's Daily Om over there on the right and see that today's offering is called That Which Sustains You. I was intrigued, and clicked on it (and I recommend that you read it as well). Part of the entry is a meditation (or prayer, if you prefer) to offer to your home in gratitude:

"Thank you, home, for allowing me to live within your walls. Thank you for giving me shelter, warmth, and security. Thank you for allowing me to live my life in your womb, for staying strong and sturdy, for supporting me, and for your beauty. Thank you, earth, for the land that I live on and for allowing me to steward life with you. Thank you for allowing me to walk upon your soil, cultivate you, and live in partnership with you. Thank you for supporting my home and my family. Thank you, plants, minerals, and animals that dwell on the land that I steward. Thank you for allowing me to experience your beauty, share in your wonderment of life, and for the honor of living with all of you on this earth. Thank you for the wisdom and joy you bring to humanity. I honor you."

I've been trying to live a life filled with more gratitude lately, and you'd think that this meditation would give me that "feel good" feeling about being grateful for my sanctuary. But it actually made me a bit sad. You see, I'm a packrat and a slob. I'm the person who, when growing up, had a filthy bedroom that I got punished for. And I'd swear to my parents that the reason was that I just didn't have enough room. I grew up, moved into an apartment, and still didn't have "enough room" and it was a mess. I now rent a house with my partner and have more than enough room. And yet, still not "enough room" and the place is atrocious. If I didn't have a church group meeting in my living room twice a month, God knows what it would it look like. (And that group is the thing that I am dropping as mentioned in an earlier post about Priorities and Decisions, so look out!) Reading this meditation made me realize that I don't honor the place I live in. I take it for granted. And an energy worker I know had mentioned how she couldn't work in clutter because it didn't allow the energy to flow correctly. Clutter just made everything stagnate and be "stuck." Maybe this is why I'm "stuck" as well. I guess I don't often do anything about it because of what I was talking about in the preceding blog entry - that I don't have time to do it all, so I do nothing. Maybe I need to re-frame that, and take baby-steps to changing my situation. Perhaps I'll start doing that meditation - I can try to "fake it until I make it" and the more I feel gratitude for my surroundings, the more I will want to honor it.